Here's one place that i'm 80% certain you won't see.

I can't even begin to type.
I dunno how i should feel, what i should type.
I literally just stared at the screen, wondering what the fuck i should write.
I guess at some point of time in life, i just happened to FORGET reading the book about what makes a person tick and what makes a person blow.

I would rather shut up then to accidentally make someone else's life a misery.
The whole thing really blew up badly.

I really hope you'd calm down.
As much as i could calm down as well.

I know there's nobody who will sympathize with my situation here, but do you know i feel as much shit as you are now?
I'm not a jackass. I don't intend to make people feel shit.
If i made someone feel like shit, i feel even worse.
I always try too hard to impress people, you said that before. You know.
Don't empathize me.
Just forget the incident and move on.

What would you rather me do?
For me, the disappointment, to leave you, so that you will never be disappointed by me again?
Or for me to continue being your friend, and apologize every time i piss you off?

I really, really don't want to lose you as a friend.
But i don't want to make you feel like shit.
I know what i'm going to do.