I hate quarrels. That's why i hate relationships.
I wonder when would people stop quarreling.
It's sucks, it fucks up my mood, i don't know what to say or do afterwards.

Sometimes i would try too hard, i admit.
Maybe because this is what i am. Full-grown pessimist and as well as a paranoid.

I WANT TO SAY I DON'T CARE; WHEN IN FACT SOMETIMES I REALLY REALLY DO CARE.

I don't enjoy being alone, but i make do.
I spend most of my days alone, and i make do.
When most of the nights/days i come home, and i want nothing more than silence, i get a screaming parent, but i make do.
I walk out the door, into the night, alone, but i still make do.


Sure i hang out with my friends, and i really love the company.
I do the LOL, the WTF, the LMFAO, etc.
But i always bring my mask with me.
Doesn't everyone do that?



please don't make me give up.
i've lost so many times, and i just want to win once.
please.